Future

Hey kiddies, I'm at Uppa's house right now. One audition down, one to go. The one this morning went alright, I think. They said I'll know within the next month. Best case scenario: They tell me I'm accepted, and I don't have to worry that I won't get into any of the colleges I applied to. That would be nice. Then I could calm down and be more at ease for the CMU audition. BUT if I am not accepted, well, I'll decide how to respond if I get that news. Syracuse audition tomorrow. There's a dance segment in that one, so that'll be fun. Hopefully it won't be anything terribly hard. I need to remember to stretch before I go to bed tonight. OH! I didn't tell you! Stupid me didn't check to see who the respondants were when they talked to us about Zombie Prom, right? THE RESPONDANT I WAS SITTING NEXT TO THE ENTIRE FREAKING TIME IS THE HEAD OF DRAMA AT CMU! Cha. Perfect opportunity to have introduced myself. Bleah. Fortunately, I did interact with him a bit, so maybe he'll remember me if I mention it to the audition people. That's not til February, though. For the audition today, I wasn't allowed to do much of the songs, so I got to end Unexpected Song before the high note. Tomorrow I have to do all of both. Grrr. Stupid G's. Like I said, today felt pretty good. Man, I wish it were Monday. ::grins:: I had a spaz attack in the car on the way up here. Thankfully, God calmed me down. This morning I just made as many connections with other people as I could. It made me feel more real. It made me feel like THEY were more real and less like judgmental demi-gods who held my future in their uncaring hands. ::grins:: See, if I let myself overanalyze, I go crazy. I have to just view this stuff as an audition. And ultimately, I've gotta remember that God's in control and He's not gonna let me starve or give me anything that I can't handle w/ His strength. If I don't get into a college, then there's something else He's got planned. It just rubs me raw that everything is in the future. Meaning it hasn't happened yet. Meaning that I have to wait to find out. I HATE SUSPENSE. ::grins:: Heck, I couldn't stand it when I was a kid reading my first chapter books. I'd have to force myself to keep reading because I knew that it would turn out alright in the end (cuz it was a book), but the stupid characters were so dumb! Ok, enough of a torrential rant there. That was awfully random. ::raises eyebrow:: Maybe that's why I don't have nicknames referring to my personality. I'm not consistent enough for anyone to label me. ::grins:: Except, of course, for my dear Zombie Prom friends who refer to me as "Klepto". Ahhhh, memories. Mk... LE_12_M_Mooooo_Matt McCetcetera! My favorite science teacher EVER! One of the few science courses I enjoyed. He's in Iraq now. My prayers go out to him. Prayers and thanks. Love ya kiddies, keep the world in your prayers. Everyone needs God. That's just the way humanity goes.
Psalm 28:7
"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song."