Peace surpassing all understanding

Hola Kiddos. I'm a little frustrated at the moment. See, I was supposed to get my driver's license today. I went to the MVA, had a few butterflies. Got to the back desk, they started putting my info into the computer, then they noticed that my permit had expired. I knew this and about four weeks ago I asked my driving instructor at the Driver's Ed school if that would be a problem. He either misunderstood me or had the wrong information because he told me that it wouldn't be a problem. What I understood from him was that I would get one chance at the test and if I failed, I would have to renew my permit and wait before trying for the license again. The MVA said I have to be holding my permit to get the license, so I have to now renew my permit. Man, oh well. I've stayed pretty calm though and I'm trying to let it go. There is absolutely nothing that I can do or could do about the whole situation, so I really have no reason to get mad. ::shrugs:: I feel better now that I've written it out. I'm also listening to some of my favorite Linda Eder songs, so that helping me relax. Everyone at the ranch thinks I'm getting my license, so I'm gonna have to recount these happening about a billion times tonight. ::shakes head:: It's funny, yesterday I said to someone that I was getting my license today and another guy that was listening interjected, "God willing." I couldn't think of any reason it wouldn't work unless I failed and I wasn't too worried about that, but wouldn't you know it... Oh well, God must have a reason. I may never know the reason til after I die, but it's good for me to have to rely on His timing. ::winces:: Ouch, Linda goes a bit flat on that ending. It's still a good song. Man, that woman is amazing. If I could sing as well as she does, I wouldn't have any worries about getting into college. Did I tell ya'll that I'm gonna have voice lessons with a woman that was my mom's voice instructor back when she was pregnant with me??? I'm so excited! Except that my voice is out of shape from disuse and misuse at the ranch. ::winks:: I've got til September to get back in shape. ::laughs:: Oh, yay, I'm smiling again. God is so good. Oh!!!!!!! You guys, I'm so excited! This chick that I met at the beginning of the summer (she comes to the bull rides, also known as buck outs, every Thursday night) accepted Christ last Thursday!!!!!!!! Do you have any idea how joy filled I am??? I've got her cell number at the ranch, but I lost my phone card and I only have one quarter, so I haven't gotten a chance to call her yet, but believe me, I will. I'll see her this Thursday too... God willing. Maybe I'll just start saying that after everything to remind me. ::chuckles and shakes head:: She's such a sweet girl. I'm also going to have a bunch of the ranch people out to the house this Saturday. Hoo rah! Man, weblogs are an awesome thing. I've gone from being incredibly frustrated to being soooo excited right before your very eyes. Maybe it's just that writing is therapeutic for me. Right now I can feel God's arms around me. I love feeling His love for me. I love looking out the window and seeing the sun shining like a gift. I love that the rearview mirror of my memory has rose colored glass. "If someone like you loved someone like me, then suddenly nothing would ever be the same. My heart would take wing, and I'd feel so alive if someone like you loved me!" Gorgeous song. The creator of the universe loves me. Nothing is the same. My heart has the wings of eagles, and He has made me alive. Darling, my heart is bursting with unexpected song and dance. I didn't expect to be blessed when I got on the computer. I expected to vent. Instead, God has given me peace and joy. He's so amazing. Do you know Him? Do you really know Him? Have you felt the love He has for you and for every person on this planet? A love so real and pure that He doesn't always give you what you want so that He can give you what you need. I understand now. I wanted my license, but I needed Him to revitalize me. I've been exhausted this week. I've been having boy problems and people problems and sleep shortages and long, hot, humid days on stupid horses. I got my foot run over by a four wheeler, rode a bull for three seconds (which was fun but you have to fall off eventually and that part hurts), and then that license thing came up. Instead of getting the license, God brought me back home and helped me work things through. I can go back to the ranch now. I can serve Him wholeheartedly again. He knows what I need. Why do I ever try to do it on my own? He's God for a reason. ::smiles:: Well, lovey, I'm gonna go do something. I'm not sure what yet, but I know Someone who does so I'm not worried. ::contented sigh:: Where am I gonna go to college? I dunno. What am I gonna do with my life? I dunno. Who am I gonna marry? I dunno. But you know what I do know? I don't care!!!!!!!!! God has the plans for my life all laid out and I can fling open my arms and spin in a field to the music of my life. You have all of my love.
Philippians 4:12-13
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."