Dumb emotions, never trust 'em ::winks::

Hey kiddies, well, it looks like God has a surprise in store for me for next year. I was hoping to be going away to college next year. Well, planning on it actually. Unfortunately, I wasn't accepted anywhere. Mmm, I learned my lesson, and I'll apply to way more colleges either for Spring or for next year. ::sighs:: Maybe I'll try out for one of the shows at Toby's next year. Gah, I really didn't want to be at home for another year. God, I don't know why you want things this way. I really thought... mmm... oh well. Now I've gotta sort through some things. Emotions and my battered pride not being the least of these. I just feel like a dork. All my friends are heading off to Princeton and Brown and such and stupid me only applied to three. I guess God could have made me stay at home even if I'd applied to a bunch more, but... Mmm, this is stupid. I can't stay frustrated at God. I can't even try being bitter at Him. ::grins:: God, I love you. He's given me such joy, just when I should logically be depressed. Heh, who knows why? I have no idea what's going to happen next year. But nobody does. 'Cept God. Mmmm. It's a good thing I don't have a boyfriend so I can spend all my love on God. ::winks:: He always sends it back and multiplies it so I've got plenty to spare for you, my love. Stay in His mercy and grace, darling. I love you lots!
Psalm 144:2
"He is my loving God and my fortress,
my stronghold and my deliver,
my shield, in whom I take refuge,
who subdues peoples under me."